No, no! And better place is certainly having his lemon chicken at Il Cantinori with his publishing friends dishing up the best and latest gossip in town. The shortest day and the longest night of the year in the Northern Hemisphere occur during winter solstice which is usually observed on december 21st or sometimes on december 22nd UTC (see table 1). I have a friend — a good friend, an old friend, she and I were lovers for a time, there was talk of marriage — she is the smartest person I’ve ever known, and that’s saying a lot because I’ve known some pretty smart persons and I’m pretty damn smart myself — she was smart enough that I couldn’t run any of my relationship games on her, she called me out every time — and she was in school, getting one of those writing MFAs I’m constantly bitching about because I don’t have one and feel threatened and inadequate — and she was a person of somewhat sometimes volatile mood. I wish they knew how much they meant to us. Your eulogy is beautiful and you’ll always miss your friend. When is the shortest day of the year? When I lived in New York many years ago, I didn’t realize how much trouble I was in with depression, compulsive eating, and suicidal ideation until I read your book Food and Loathing. When night is considered … And even though this is common wisdom, it isn't entirely accurate. I’m so sorry for all that you and your family have gone through. We’ve never met and know each other only through this place and Facebook and our writings, but you are dear to me and I wish that, if I had such long arms, I might have at their ends the hands that could pluck from you the cancer that bedevils you and threatens your life. Begin Again 9. Hold on, hold on … xo. I truly never know what to say in situations like this. Sleep apnea. My mom died of a drug overdose on New Year’s Day last year. 2. explore First, that gay memoirs were still difficult to sell and that books about dementia were even more difficult. This is common in discussions of the huge difference in temperatures, such … I suppose we’ve all had the thought at some point or another. I stood in the conference room of the 19th-story office I worked in and had such a strong impulse, in my despair — for I was already on the broken side of my first marriage and of countless other affairs of the heart wherein I sought that love which, if one does not receive it in early youth, one seeks it forever after and never can find it, no matter what else may be found — I stood near the window in this conference room, looking out, and had such a strong impulse to throw myself out through that window that I quickly turned and walked away. Thank you kindly – that means a lot. 1) Please don’t say that George is in a better place. They were to hang up their phones and kill themselves immediately afterwards. I’ve never told her how desperate I was when I called her that first night — maybe she could hear it in my voice, but maybe not and maybe it didn’t matter, we had a pre-school child to raise and she was not interested in being a single mom — but would I have done it? It helps to know one’s limits, one’s triggers, one’s bounds. I wasn’t afraid. Three people I knew very well committed suicide – all three used a firearm of some sort. When it’s not your choice, maybe that’s what makes one so determined to stick around. From Songs of Innocence I’m enjoying that breeze, Mike. Fuck grief. All the testimonies here have left me shaken and sad this morning. Wow, your words are very powerful – thank you! In 2020 winter solstice is observed on december 21, exactly at 10:02 am UTC.The opposite case takes place during june solstice - the longest day … When a new assistant editor joins your publishing house, you can take him or her to lunch and make them feel less anxious and more welcome. Thanks for the comment. For students who have more energy earlier in the day, studying in the morning may work best, when the brain is better able to focus. When one’s life veers into a series of tragedies and sadness, the rest of the world certainly becomes an annoying reminder of everything trite, rude, self-centered and cruel. (Was it my face on the page I saw?). The damn stuff has come back three times, but as long as I have options, I have hope. But as with many writers, depression settled in and boxed out hope. Related. He liked to smoke pot and golf, not necessarily in that order. But: I’ve also watched many kill themselves slowly with alcohol or drugs. This is because the Earth’s imaginary axis isn’t straight up and down, it is tilted 23.5 degrees. Somehow he manages to pull himself out of depression, but I am ever vigilant. A better place is sitting next to me at the National Book Critics Circle Award. Oh, no. According to Westerosi legends, in the midst of this darkness a race of apparent demons, called the Others, emerged from the uttermost north of Westeros, the polar regions of the Lands of Always Winter. It was like being caught in an undertow. She was on the phone one night with one of her classmates, and they were going on with each other about how sucky life was — and it is that, sucky, among other things — and they talked each other into a suicide pact. Yes, hold on. if i got sick with a terminal illness, etc. Donna, if my arms could reach from here where I sit at my computer, and they would stretch out across the land, over the farms and rivers and mountains to you, and I could take you and give you a warm and tender embrace, you know I would. I was just lucky that I found you and your words. . When my mother was failing, George had shown me the way in Bettyville. I thank you for them; George’s memory is honored by them. I am sorry —. Dont let yourself go, everybody cries and She said, Let me think about it. What is your experience with suicidal ideation in yourself or others? Can I see a falling tear, Please find a small comfort in knowing that many are living this journey, too. when the day is long and the night, the night is yours alone. Such terrible losses! she got help immediately and was diagnosed with a generalized anxiety disorder that was running high at that point. You are not alone. Thrown myself off the platform in front of the train? Usually even more game time will pass in a real hour thanks to time-accelerated activities such as breaking up furniture or sleeping, which can pass up to 12 game hours in as little as 10 seconds. I’m so sorry to hear about your losses, Betsy. Now Comes the Rain 5. I loved George Hodgman because of the way he came through in BETTYVILLE, and now I love him even more because of what you shared in this eulogy. Many don’t know – I usually like to talk about more interesting things, but Betsy’s post got me. Now, here, these days, many days and years later, here I am in Chicago, with my second wife, and I have told her that if she ever sees me with a pistol in my hand — and I do not own a pistol — but if she ever sees me with a pistol in my hand, she is to call 911 immediately, because my having such a weapon would mean that I was about to shoot someone, probably myself. And not feel my sorrow’s share? I never saw it coming. In your blazin' hour Your light is the green flame Your room on fire You're a wire to the mainframe. My family has sadly had a crash course in grieving, and tonight I want to share four things I’ve learned. Thanks for listening, Betsy. I apologize in advance for bringing you down. Were they afraid or fearless? I sometimes felt I saw something in their eyes, but at the time did not realize the extent of their despair. But as you say, Betsy, life tugs, if ever so quietly. He always had a vision and cajoled and prodded and nurtured his writers until they got it. When youre sure youv'e had enough of this life, well hang on. Grief, for me, is now a sort of hibernation; a time for stepping away from the every-day to reflect and assemble new courage to live onward. .” I’ve had a very serious thought of taking myself to one of the six (maybe it’s eight) states where the right to die is legal. I’m Betsy Lerner, George’s literary agent. There has been no time since then — and that was twenty-five years ago — but there was one other time, five years before that, when my first marriage was on the rocks and I had come to NYC to make a new life — but I was in such despair, I had lost my wife, my child, my business, my home, and here I was in one of the toughest environments — I was devastated, and one morning I stood on the platform at the 59th Street Columbus Circle Station and as the D Train pulled in, I had an almost overwhelming urge to step off the platform in front of the train — I can still see that train pulling in. At 17, I attempted suicide. And get help. As it rotates, you spend roughly half your time on the day side and roughly half on the night. For students who have more energy earlier in the day, studying in the morning may work best, when the brain is better able to focus. Spooked myself, I did, and I promised myself that, if I ever felt again such a strong urge to kill myself, I would call a hotline first — that I owed it to my family to do that. Shuttered World 3. George was a copy writer when I met him at Simon and Schuster over 30 years ago. When you're in your song The moon's in the blue trees Sea of light Let's pretend that the world's free. Your email address will not be published. Suffering means you can go to one more meeting at Perry Street. There are better days ahead, I’m sure. For the record, he continued to threaten me with going to Binky whenever I told him something he didn’t like. Fine, he snapped, I’ll go to Binky. The actual line Malcolm says is "Receive what cheer you may/ The night is long that never finds the day." Love. My words at this moment attest that I lived. New American Standard Bible We must carry out the works of Him who sent Me as long as it is day; night is coming, when no one can work. It is Fates Warning's first release on Metal Blade Records since 2004's FWX. Can a mother sit and hear During the siege, Joe reflects on the circumstances that led him to this situation. This poem has always consoled me. The day is done, and the darkness. And not seek for kind relief? When the day is short And the nights are long It's a different world Where the rules are wrong And I, I will go home with who Whoever is sure Are you sure? What a horrible time of grief and sorrow you’ve had to experience. When is the shortest day of the year? I think about their thought processes as they prepared. What a journey for you. We had a child to raise. Those in Amsterdam will get three more minutes of daylight with a 12 hours and 11 minutes long day. I am now 65. There is a line in Carson McCuller’s The Heart is a Lonely Hunter which comes to mind at times like these–“How can the dead be truly dead when they remain in the hearts of the living.” I will always remember George as he was when I met him while I worked at Simon & Schuster. However, the difference is that It takes 28.5 days for the moon to spin about its axis. The term lunar day is also used in the context of night and day, i.e., opposite to the lunar night. Long Day's Journey Into Night. It’s been a while since I’ve thought like this, but years ago when I was going through some emotional turmoil, I’d think about sleeping pills – nothing messy for me. 6 months and 23 days ago as I lay in the ambulance at 3:30 am being rushed to the hospital while experiencing what I thought were the last few minutes for my poor damaged heart to continue beating I was sort of excited about what I would discover on the other side. Firstly, Malcolm seems very confident and emotionless in his words, which comes as a surprise. There are words and you nailed them in George’s eulogy. Although a solar day is 24 hours, not every day has 12 hours of daylight and 12 hours of night. The longest day and the shortest night of the year in the Northern Hemisphere occur during summer solstice which is usually observed on june 21st or sometimes on june 20 UTC (see table 1). Two were co-workers I’d known for decades, and the other was my brother in law. But that “live now” whisper, that kept me in the world. Now it's time to sing alongWhen your day is night alone, (hold on, hold on)If you feel like letting go, (hold on)When you think you've had too much of this life, well hang on, 'Cause everybody hurts. I experienced quite a few losses myself this year. I, too, have lost loved ones to drunk drivers, to suicide, to AIDS, to the ineptness of the Corps of Engineers, to bureaucracy and misplaced priorities. 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